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[07 Jul 2008|05:42pm] |
I'm really tired of getting treated so badly (by patrons) at work. I am not made to work with the public. it's mostly men of all ages and older women. they are such jerks! they treat me like they just know I'm utterly incompetent. It's not everyone, fortunately. I assume it's because of my age/appearance. I try really hard to look nice. or at least decent and professional. I don't even have ridiculous hair anymore and I still get treated badly... so apparently since my hair color doesn't make a difference I might as well dye it however I want and have fun in the other parts of my life. heh.
OK, so there's this girl I was friends with with Jr. high. i assumed we would stay friends through high school but she grew ever more uninterested in me. I ignored it and still put effort into being her friend, for years. in fact, up until last year when I decided to drop it and see if she would even try, just a little, to stay friends with me. well, nothing. no big loss, that's for sure. but it's not like we didn't have anything in common or anything to offer each other. in fact, sadly, i would have to say she probably has more in common with me than most of my friends do. but she just doesn't like me.
Anyway we also happen to have the same job at different libraries. today she called me to get a movie for one of her patrons. I picked up the phone and said my usual "Audio Visual reference, this is (my name)" and there was a startled pause on the other side and then she plowed ahead with her request without acknowledging me at all. Perhaps she also considers me too incompetent to have the job I do, because she was definitely surprised. Since she pretended not to know me I pretended not to know her back because I don't really care, but I thought it was an interesting little encounter. You can pretend someone doesn't exist for whatever reason, but they pop up again, because they do exist. The whole thing was rather ridiculous, actually. But i have spent a lot of mental anguish on my decision to cut her out of my life in the past year. But it wasn't really my decision, it was her decision, I'm only obliging, and i have to keep reminding myself that I've really lost nothing in ending a nonexistent relationship.
and speaking of friends, I know that I'm not a good one. I know. I'm so used to being alone that everything I'm interested in, everything I do, is based on the concept of being alone. so, I think that I'm an incredibly boring person to other people. I would like to have friends that have the same interests as me. I have a lot of (one-person) hobbies, and I wish other people had them to, and we could do them together, but i don't think anyone really wants to get together to hang out and do some stupid craft or whatever (correct me if i'm wrong.) also i don't sit there and plan "at 5:00 wednesday I'll do knitting" so if I find myself with free time I just do whatever thing i'm working on by myself, I don't think to call anyone about it. Also no one likes to come over to my apartment and I don't blame them because it's a total mess most of the time because there's a certain chemistry living there that doesn't allow anything to ever effectively settle down (I don't want to say what I really want to say about that issue.)
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| Community Improvement |
[03 Jul 2008|04:43pm] |
I'll write a short version of the idea I had. I was thinking about how, while service projects in foreign lands are great and all, or maybe not so great, I don't think that means our local communities don't need to be improved as well. I passed by a dead and deserted parking lot for a gone-out-of-business car dealership and thought to myself, what a disgusting waste of space. and I thought how lovely it would be to buy the property of gone car businesses and create community spaces there, like parks, amphitheaters, market places, etc. If I was so rich I could just do stuff like that. And then I thought, a non-profit organization could raise funds to do that kind of thing. thinking about it some more I didn't see why it couldn't be a business that does it, except that it would have to be one of those nice businesses that really care about the land and community, or else there wouldn't be a difference between them and regular businesses that buy property to build on.
So there you have it... a NPO or progressive business that buys the property of defunct businesses with which they disagree on a moral basis, to create free and open community-improving projects on the land. To rip out a parking lot and grow a community garden. buying out car-related services appeals to me because I don't think that so many people need so many cars and the proliferation of car ownership is the source of a lot of city problems. If car dealerships go out of business it means the demand for cars is diminishing, right? I'd like to do something to perpetuate that idea.
If I was in charge of this all the new buildings and whatever would be totally environmentally friendly and energy efficient (at least as much as possible.) I could implement everything I believe in when it comes to earth-conscious design. By placing these concepts openly in a public space, they gain acceptance as people become aware of such building options.
Having said all that, I wish I did know more about business and investing because I think it would take a lot of those skills to do that kind of thing.
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[02 Jul 2008|02:50pm] |
BARF LJ. I was totally writing a great post and then I tried to open a new tab to check some spelling (i really want to spell prove like proove, what a weird word) using the key command ctrl+T BUT instead it decided to go back a page and lost my entry and I thought that LJ auto-saves but apparently not this time.. or whatever I did overrode that... WHATEVER though. I'm fairly certain that my incredibly genius ideas for revolutionizing the world that i wanted to discuss would have been ill-received or blatantly ignored, and besides, writing something on LJ obviously isn't the best way to take action and make changes anyway.
still pisses me off... it was probably a combo windows+firefox glitch. like, half the time I want to backspace something I've typed it reverts out of the text field and decides the backspace i'm doing is really the key command for going back a page... that happens to me so much on windows machines. EVERYTHING about windows pisses me off. I HATE YOU MICROSOFT. computers made for idiots can only effectively be used by idiots. I'm just too smart for this machine.
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[30 Jun 2008|02:47pm] |
I'm getting a taste of what working as a real designer is like from the Chronicle. Dealing with people who don't know as much as me about computers in general... and can't get the stuff I need to me in a reasonable amount of time. like this:
Me: it's be best if you could email me those images.
Random Guy: ....
Random Guy: (days later) So, when can you come pick up the disc with the pictures? Call me.
Me: (day before deadline, in email) Your phone number's disconnected. I'm going to the office at 6:00 today. The disc better be there, or you WON'T be by this time tomorrow...
Design manager guy: Why didn't he just email them to you?
(okay, I'm really bad at coming up with threats)
So anyway. I guess I know what I'll be able to complain about when I finally quit public service and get a real design job. (incompetent people. which is what I already complain about.)
anyways, i am LOVING this superhot weather. except when I'm indoors. In my apartment it's way too hot (especially at night) and in places with AC it's way too frikkin cold! I think a major point in the lifestyle I hope to build for myself will be the ability to sleep outdoors (safely) whenever I want. and in fact, to have easy access to a beautiful, personal outdoors space. This is a big reason why I am into earth-sheltered homes. If your house is under the ground, you have the entire square footage of your property for a garden! I don't think I want an entirely underground house, maybe more like one that goes into a hill like a hobbit hole <3 and out the backside of the hill I would like an attached screened porch, like an outdoor living room, with lots of plants and comfortable furniture and a fireplace, I would sleep out there all the time! I'm dying for a private living space with a yard but I know I won't be able to afford a house for a long time, especially because I want to custom-design and build it, and all the areas I'd like to live in are really expensive :( I don't want a very large house or yard, though. In fact I love small homes. I read books about small homes all the time. I have tons of little ideas about space design in my head, but I really don't have the mental capacity for architecture (thinking about rooms is so disorienting for me) so i don't think I could design a whole house myself, although I've been practicing. I would need to hire an architect. and you can't really design a good home without knowing what plot of land it's going to be on. at least, according to my own principles of good design, which I consider to be better than everyone else's that I don't agree with. (don't let my use of run-on sentences & fragments fool you.)
moral of the story is that time spent outside is better than time spent inside.
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| Style Chart |
[20 Jun 2008|12:45pm] |
This is my totally scientific, all-inclusive, exhaustively researched style chart which conclusively defines Fantasy, Sci-Fi, and Historical style genres and their subcategories.
So I've concluded that I basically can mix any or all of these things together. like a salad, each element could be chunky enough to be identified or finely mixed to blend into a less identifiable new style.
But basically, I think it comes down to a push and pull between "industrial" and "elegant" (mirroring what my life has seemed to become, working class vs. high class in a way...) I've got to say that steampunk perhaps has already epitomized that paradox perfectly, but it doesn't include any magic... and magic has to be included somehow. I think I could go for the rest of my life thinking about different ways to combine these elements. The point isn't to reach a conclusion, to discover some final answer. The idea is to create as many things as possible.
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| Ionization |
[19 Jun 2008|08:20pm] |
OK. on wednesday we rode the frontrunner to odgen. (very nice trip, and we got to go for free because th ticket machine broke. i always can go for free because of my uta ed pass, but they didn't make zed pay.) then we started to ride our bikes. the plan was to go to Logan, 43 miles away. but I started to have a breakdown halfway between Brigham City and Mantua (pop. 741) so we barely made it into Mantua to call from the only store in the town, which didn't have a pay phone, but a nice lady let us use her cell phone, (even though it's long distance to call logan, which is only 20 miles from there!) and zed's mom and grandma picked us up (we were going to visit them).
so, i think i made it 25 miles, not bad for an untrained pudgy girl on a bike that isn't even the right size. now i now my limit. 20 miles is ok, more is not a good idea...
on the way we stopped at a cherry farm and bought delicious, wonderful, unbelievable cherries <3
at G-ma's house we washed our clothes. this is the coolest part of the story. she has this water ionization machine hooked up to her clothes washer. with ionized water you don't have to use any laundry detergent, and you use only cold water. I had to try it. we threw everything in together (whites and colors) and washed... and... i couldn't even believe it... not only were they all clean, but they were all the cleanest I've ever seen them. the white clothes and printed fabric with a white base were the brightest and cleanest they'd been since I got them. It was incredible. G-ma paid like, $700 for the water ionizator but m-i-l told us on the DL that she uses cow magnet and they work just as well. (cow magnet are just really strong magnets about the size of a finger that farmers make cows swallow because cows also swallow a lot of other junk, some of it metal, and the magnet collects that stuff and gets it passed out of the cow's system.)
she stuck 6 of these magnets around the inside washing cylinder space of the washing machine and it works just as well to ionize the water and clean the clothes without soap. it's just unbelievable. so we bought some cow magnets and are going to try it at home too.
more proof that magnets=magic.
another cool thing, a bike shop in logan gave us a new handlebar set for my bike for free!
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| Writer's Block: LiveJournal friends |
[19 Jun 2008|07:44pm] |
My husband.
At first I noticed him because he was posting in a few different communities that I was also a member of. They were communities for the Salt Lake area so I knew he lived in the same area as me and I thought he looked kind of interesting, so I started to read his journal and became his friend... (and, in time, more...) We met in real life soon and really "hit it off," as they say. But I absolutely would never have known he existed if it wasn't for Livejournal. We didn't have any real-life connections at all beforehand. So I've gotta say, good thing I'm such an internet nerd! I'm married to a wonerful guy thanks to Livejournal! :)
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| Aesthetics--i dont' think this entry makes sense. |
[04 Jun 2008|04:27pm] |
disclaimer: general knowledge of art & design movements and genres may help you understand this post, even if it is total rambling.
i've been thinking a lot about "styles" and "aesthetics," like, always wondering what's the right look for me, or more importantly, what I like the most and feel like integrates best with my personality or whatever. I'm not just talking hair and makeup or girlmag bs like "sassy vs. sultry," I'm talking like an entire lifestyle theme. fashion, design, art, interior design, architecture, product design, even literature and film... they all follow each other's trends and can be grouped in relative aesthetic themes.
This is a search that's been going on my whole life. like in jr. high I thought i was really into (what I thought was) 60s and 70s style. or i was into grunge for a while. going to events like the RenFaire/FantasyFest and stores like Anastasia's Attic make me realize that fantasy-themed stuff makes me really happy. and seeing art in different styles--whether in art history classes or fine art galleries or popular and commercial art websites, professionals or amateurs--solidifies my love for many different styles.
more about this later, including a "word map" to help me sort things out.
The reason this has come up and i've thought about it so much is because I want to build a website for myself and i'm having style issues. it stemmed from this and went downhill from there. too much to discuss. brain implosion eminent.
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| strangle strangle strangle |
[02 Jun 2008|02:22pm] |
If anyone remembers the issues I was having with ordering supplies at work... they never end!
So part of my job is to order our office supplies so we don't run out and can function properly. hmm, that seems like something everyone can understand and sympathize with. some of our supplies, being the AV library, are different replacement parts for CD cases so that when the cases break we can replace them. Being a library with an extraordinarily large audio-visual collection and heavy circulation to match, we need a steady supply of plenty of CD case replacement parts. I don't think that is unreasonable.
However, EVERYTIME for the last 6 months I have tried to order any of those replacement parts, the woman who is supposed to send them up to me totally ignores me, and then acts all offended that I request to have our supplies sent to us. This happened again in the past few weeks. I tried calling because she made a huge deal last time about how I should just call her, but of course she wasn't there (we never work at the same time because she has a regular 9-6 weekday schedule and I have all afternoon/night/weekends), so I sent an email. She replied and said the guy who actually does the job of carrying the job of carrying the boxes of from the basement to the AV office (since she can't be bothered to do something like that) already checked and told her that we already have some boxes of Cd case replacement parts! NO &#$*#(#&@ ... remember last time how you STRANDED us for 4 months without the parts we needed? you think I'm going to wait until we run totally out before I ask for more? DUH. and also, again, she made a big friggin deal about how I should just call next time. Even though I told her in the email that I have tried calling and I can't ever get her, or anyone who knows anything about it. She also said, If you can't *find* the boxes you already have, call and we'll come up and *show* you where they are. this woman obviously thinks I'm a total idiot.
So I sent an email back, I tried to be cordial while explaining that those were the boxes we already had and we need new ones because we're going to run out soon. but without an outside observer to do some editing I don't know how cordial it was, because I was pretty pissed off. I told her that my managers have told me to do it this way. She seems to think that I'm trying to hog all the CD case parts I can or something.
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| Education |
[29 May 2008|05:27pm] |
Ok, so I have 123.5 credits now. I could totally be graduated. But I still have two more years of school. That's ok, because for the most part I enjoy the school work I'm involved with, but still.
My overall GPA for all of my college classes ever is 3.56. In my whole college life I've gotten one C- (Survey of Jazz) and one C+ (College Algebra, taken while in high school) and those were the two worst classes I've ever taken, ever, in any kind of educational system, so I'm really not too upset about the grades, good enough to pass is good enough for me on those crappy required credits.
Other than those two all my grades have been B+, A-, or A, I think that's pretty good. I used to be like Lisa Simpson, and feel so dirty if I got less than A's, but I stopped caring so much about letter grades and started to care more about learning.
On a school-related note, I think that at the Chronicle they didn't want to tell me upfront but basically hired me to be on the staff for all of next year, which I can't actually do. They don't pay as much as the Library, and I don't have enough time for both jobs and school, and the Chrony would require even more time than my real job does. I care about design a lot, and I would love to have a design job ASAP, but I can't commit to the Chronicle at this point. If they like, totally upped my pay and I would only have to work 2 or 3 nights a week, and if the new manager I'm getting at the Library sucks (my current manager's last day is tomorrow), then I might quit the library and work at the Chronicle. I can't even work there on Monday and Wednesday nights in the Fall because I have class until 9pm! And they expect me to go to their meetings on Fridays, which I definitely can't do every week if I am working at the Library. geez, what have I gotten into. it's not a big deal though. I'll keep working through the summer and then officially decide in the fall when I actually have to.
And speaking of design & the library, some of the people I work with who are artists have hinted that they would be interested in me making portfolio websites for them as most art galleries now prefer to view artist's websites instead of physical portfolios. I don't know if I am ready for that, but maybe soon :) (paid job, of course, artists know better than to try to get other artists to work for free.)
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| creativity |
[27 May 2008|12:52pm] |
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i can't remember if I ever mentioned it, but I have another blog in which I track my many creative endeavors, and there's hardly any whining. So if you just can't get enough of me here, check it out at zoepapilia.blogspot.com.
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| Merlin's Pants song list updated. |
[26 May 2008|12:04pm] |
* = keeper
? = maybe
neither means it's a new song and we haven't decided whether to keep it yet.
by eqos--->
( Snape Song )
status: none
( Voldemort Song )
status: none
( That Weird Potter Kid )
( Boy in the Common Room )
status: since this is to the tune of Star of the County Down, I guess that much is taken care of.
( Fred and George )
status: this is to the tune of the darkwing duck theme song. I think that each of us is thinking of a different way to write a F&G theme song, the point is it must be done.
( Take the Fate )
status: none
*( Rons's Song: In the Forest )
status: I have played with melodies for this but they are all too stupid so far. I would like an acoustic Blind Guardian sound but I'm only coming up something like the more melodramatic of the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.
? ( Apparate to You )
status: nothing
? ( Oh Slytherin )
Status: tried to come up with a melody. I think I've got something ok but this is a low priority.
*( Scar-Free )
status: played with melody again. some of it is good and some is just too corny. this one will be hibernating for a bit.
Random ideas:
*Morsmordre (an instrumental?)
*Wonky Faint
*( If this Song is Emo, So is Harry (Liberacor) )
status: nothing. i might have tried some melodies out but nothing memorable.
*( Monster in my Chest )
status: nothing except i rudely stole the concept and wrote a different song.
*( The Magic Cure It Do It All )
status: nothing, i intend to let(force) brynn (to) write this song.
*( Pink=Evil )
Status: written by Brynn & ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) eqos and make-shiftingly recorded.
*( Humungous Bighead Boy )
status: nothing
? ( Lily's Eyes )
status: nothing
*( Goodbye Muggle World )
status: melody set and in process of transcription!
*( Die Tonight )
Status: music-writing in progress hibernating
*( Hey Flint )
status: nothing
*( Luckiest Boy )
status: nothing (i can't find a recording of the original song.)
? ( Potter Polyjuice )
status: nothing
*( Poor Winky )
status: finished writing. recording in progress.
songs by me:
*( Myrtle's song for Draco )
status: finished, practicing in progress.
*( Not a Waste of Space )
status: melody transcription and chord progression in progress.
( Ballad of Monsters )
status: melody set.
( Grey Lady & the Baron )
status: melody and chords finished, piano part in progress.
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[23 May 2008|04:38pm] |
April 30th, 2005
"i saw melea at the library as i was headed to Nihon matsuri, she said she might go later. it's not worth it though."
Maybe If i realized that was the LAST TIME I would ever see her alive I would have tried a little harder.
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| two extremes I'm in between. |
[12 May 2008|05:17pm] |
I did two very different and new things this past weekend.
On Friday night I took a trip to Wendover with some fun friends.
Then on Saturday I spent several hours at... a Renaissance Faire with most of my family.
They were both really weird.
I have to be honest, I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings, but I didn't really like Wendover. I don't think that it's because I'm a prude, uptight Mormon. I don't drink, and if I did it may have been more fun, so I guess that is part of it. The gambling was with "free" money that I'd already committed to the trip so I didn't really lose or waste anything. But I never really won anything, so there wasn't really any fun involved with the gambling.
But I did really enjoy just being with my friends. I really like hanging out with the people I went with. I don't think we have to go to Wendover. I would like to spend time with them here, we could play card games and bake and stuff. So, Wendover was good in general because I was with good people.
I can't think of a way to describe the Renaissance Faire, but that doesn't mean I thought it was indescribable in that amazing, left-me-speechless way, because it wasn't. But also not in that "no words for the beyond-awful" way either. It made me feel weird, but mostly in a good way. I would definitely say that the RenFaire was on the good side of the spectrum but I did feel a little ambivalent, or like, confused about my feelings. it was really a Renaissance Festival & Fantasy Faire which pretty much makes it a free-for-all history/fantasy nerdfest. Renaissance? let's add some fairies! and why not throw in pirates, Gypsies, ancient Egypt, Celts, and Japan while we're at it... and practically the whole thing was just shopping. I don't even like shopping that much, although this was better than a mall because it was costumes and swords and stuff like that.
Anyway, the experience led me to realize that I still really love fantasy stuff, as dorky as it is, and I've kind of cut that stuff out of my life a little for several years (except for Harry Potter). So I had forgotten it but then, being immersed in that kind of culture for a few hours, I sort of felt "home" about it. (then again it could have been something else about the experience that felt that way, like walking around in "nature"--it was an on overgrown farm--or just being in a costume, or just being outside on a sunny day. i dunno. anyway...) And I thought, none of my friends are willing to be this nerdy. I could have a lot of fun with them if they were. But then I remembered that's it's not really fun to be friends with people who are super-nerdy, to the extent that they have no social skills and it's awkward and painful to even talk to them. I think I'm inbetween. I'm pretty nerdy. but I have standards. I don't think I'm totally socially inept. are there other people like me that I could be friends with? or are my current friends more like me than I realize? because.. there are a lot of really nerdy things that I think I could have a lot of fun doing if I wasn't with people who'd be too embarrassed to do it. But I don't even know what (or I'm afraid to say it out loud.) I guess I am still a little inhibited and wanting to "guard my rep," not that I even have one, but, like almost everyone, i still want other people to think I'm kind of cool, or at least okay. or at least not utterly hopeless.
My Harry Potter party is going to be pretty nerdy, but in a cool, acceptable way. i hope.
p.s. also about the ren faire, i had blind guardian stuck in my head all during and for a long time afterwards, without even having listened to them for like, months. that's pretty awesome (except the not having listened to them part, which i am fixing right now.)
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| Got stuff |
[08 May 2008|08:02pm] |
Got a second job. a one-day a week gig at the Daily Utah Chronicle.. the U of U's newspaper of which I incessantly make fun. it'll only be an extra $200 a month, but hey, it's an extra $200 a month! I don't need it to live, so it's just easy fun money. I'm doing graphics and page layout.. don't worry, I'm not writing any articles. I think I happen to be a better writer than to need to be published in that rag. haha, but seriously, the articles in there suck big time.
I also got a cold. this may not seem like a big deal to you people, but this is the first time I've had a cold--the first time I've been sick at all--since this time last year. I didn't get sick for a whole year! (menstruation and sleep deprivation don't count). I think my cold is almost over, but unfortunately my seasonal allergies are starting to kick in :( and I can never remember which brand of allergy medicine works for me so I usually buy a few before I find the right one. I need to write it down or something, and then the next year remember that I wrote it down and where, so i can get the right kind.
Going to Wendover tomorrow :) that should be fun!
I dunno what to do about Mother's day :(
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| Vague People. |
[03 May 2008|05:16pm] |
why are people so freakin vague all the time? this guy asks if we have any jim carrey movies. I scroll through the list of 40+ to tell him they are all checked out, and he's like, "you don't have dumb and dumber?" I'm like, IF YOU WANTED DUMB AND DUMBER WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY SO IN THE FIRST PLACE!?!?! but that's the better of the vague questions I get asked. some people just walk up and say, "Spanish?" like, wtf. do you want to know if I speak Spanish? If there's a Spanish-speaker in the department? Are you asking about Spanish music? (traditional or contemporary?) do you want Spanish movies? do you want to learn how to speak Spanish? because all of these questions have distinctly different answers! They act like they are in such a huge frickin hurry but i could help them a lot faster if I knew what they wanted.
Here's a new rule for how to live your life so that everyone is happier....
If you must be vague, DON'T GET UPSET when the person you're talking to asks for clarification! If you ask me if i've checked my email, I could say "yeah, I've checked my email millions of times in the past 10 years since I first got email," but that would probably not answer your question, so I say, "yeah... was there something you wanted me to see?" I can't think of one specific message from the loads of crap I read everyday. so don't be like, "oh, she doesn't think I'm IMPORTANT enough to know what I'm vaguely referring to!" You COULD just say at the beginning "did you get the message i sent you about the whatever" (except replace whatever with the specific thing you actually want to talk about!) and then I can be like, "yeah," or, "no," or, "I can't remember, when did you send it, i haven't checked my mail since 10 am." don't ask a ton of peripheral questions. don't beat around the bush. just tell me what you want to talk about. or if you must be vague, let me repeat this, don't be surprised or offended that I have no clue what you're talking about.
okay, now that everyone in the whole world is aware of my feelings on this matter and will certainly change their bad habits to make life better & easier, I can go about the rest of my day happy as can be.
Remember: Vague is not the same as Vogue.
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took my final exam for history of graphic design today. it went well. it was 100 images that we had o match with the designer. i only looked over all the images once before the test but i already knew some from the lectures and quizzes throughout the year, and i'm good at making up lame pneumonic (?) devices to remember difficult associations. the dumber, the better. like one was a book cover by a guy names alvin lustig. It said "lorca" on it and had a picture of a cross, so i could remember it because Lorca and Lustig both start with L, and then i associated the cross with Christianity, with saints who received the stigma or something. I really don't know anything about that Catholic saint stuff but I know that there is "stig" in the word. soo.. Lu-stig.
so the semester is officially over for me except i have to go back up to campus to pick up my paintings and get the add codes for next semester's design classes.
Went to "The Producers" today @ the PTC. it was really funny, i gotta say. there were so many gay jokes though, and even though it was funny, i wondered whether gay people would think it was funny or be offended. :\ and that stifled my enjoyment a little.
I've been thinking a lot about how much I miss theater and a show like this doesn't help. I'd really like to get back into acting, or anything. I love everything about theater. I would love to do theater design. I haven't acted for so long I could only get into the type of show where they accept everyone :( I quit theater in high school because I was so disgusted with the people involved. also i wanted to take AP Music Theory which was at the same time as the elite audition-only theater class, which I was accepted into. I don't regret taking music theory because it's awesome and now i can be a rock star. but i lost my chance to be a movie star.
speaking of actors, Daniel Radcliffe actually has gotten really hott, and that has nothing to do with Harry Potter. hmm.. i haven't looked at any pictures of Tom Felton lately.
...yeah, still hott. better with longer hair though.
coming up this week:
Thursday is the Stitch Effect at the library, 4th floor by the fireplaces, 7:00. a knit/crochet group open to everyone. I will be there part of the time with my new shipwrecked pirate shirt project.
Friday night is my friend Elsa's graduation party. but i don't have any plans during the day except to pick up my paintings from school.
Saturday i work all day, then I'm going to murray for band practice, then i'm going to Sandy for a remembrance birthday party for my dear, departed cousin :S (i don' t know whether to smile or be sad for that)
sunday sunday sunday, can i make it through another sunday?
monday: no plans that I know of!
tuesday: only work from1-6
wednesday: Girl's Night at the bike collective! 5-9 (i kind of made that time frame up, i hope it's right.) i made an awesome flier for it. http://www.saltcycle.com/2008/04/hey-ladies.html
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[29 Apr 2008|02:05pm] |
i passed my "test" yesterday... my portfolio review. It was fine. I got the distinct impression that all the teachers had pretty much decided beforehand on which students would continue/repeat/drop and the portfolio review was just for show. I worked so hard on making my pieces (and myself) presentable and they barely looked at anything.
They told me something interesting that I will have to keep in mind. They said that I am clearly more of a conceptual thinker, and that I am weaker in "finishing" and "perfecting" my pieces. I think that's probably good. I mean I think it's better to already that as a strength, because finishing techniques can be learned easily and will naturally develop in time with practice.
i really want to do a lot of practice projects and such over the summer. and i am seriously going to surround myself with good design. one thing that I feel has been dragging me down this year has been that i lot of the visual data I'm absorbing has been bad design. I can't create something good if I don't know what "good" is. if I don't have a catalog of good examples to be inspired by. bad design=the death of us all.
most of the world doesn't even care about design but it's practically all I care about.
if they knew how integral it was to their world, how much it influences everything from their actions to their identities, they'd care more.
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i'm not really depressed. just so you all know. i'm really excited for summer and time to myself and to spend with friends. I have my portfolio review tomorrow, a little nerve wracking but it will be okay. a test on wednesday night which sounds pretty easy. then nothing but fun in the sun! except while i'm at work. but whatever.
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went to fashion stroll tonight. it was pretty cool. there were 3 fashion shows. I didn't think most of the models were that great, but then again who am I to be critical of models? but still... not that great. they got better they the end, or maybe I was just used to it. by "not that great" I mean I thought that their model walks and model facial expressions were too contrived and.. just like they were trying way too hard. it has to look natural. I could see them "get into mode," I should not have to see that. I have to believe that these people are always like this, that they don't even care. Their bershon was forced, and if it's forced, it's not bershon.
anyway, another interesting thing that happened to me today was at the library, this guy asked if I ever toured with the Grateful Dead, I said, "Tour with the Grateful Dead? I'm not nearly old enough to have done so" and then these girls he was with were like, "I knew it! I told you so!" I guess he thought I was someone else :shrug: he also called me "gorgeous," ugh.
but i could have been a Deadhead.
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